Anger, Sadness & Recovery

I made this painting in April 2011 when I was going through a very dark phase in my life. Coming to the realization that things weren’t the way I dreamt they would be , and the disappointment from someone I once thought I could love had finally cleared my eyes to see the reality of my situation. I needed to heal and I took to my canvas for this necessary step , for me to forge forth and make decisions that would eventually set me on the right track, the one that God had always intended for me.

I painted myself in red , it represents the anger that burnt within me. I was fuming. If only you could see my insides. Anger from all that I had invested in that relationship, all gone to waste. Anger from the watching the walls we tried to build all come crumbling down. I guess they were always shaking and they couldn’t take it anymore. I slowly receded into sadness, represented by the deep ultramarine blue. How would I face the world the next day, wear a smile and pretend that all is well like I had gotten used to doing even though I was crumbling inside. I felt a shame that wasn’t upon me to feel, I blamed myself even though I know I shouldn’t have. I took steps to recover , green is the color of new life, new hope. I got the strength I always needed to pursue my destiny and here I am today.

This painting is made of 3 separate canvases, all stitched together to form one piece. It…